It's just too much!

Today was one of those times I thought to myself that - "It's just too much" and wanted to get out of the game and sit on the sidelines for a little while.  I figured no one would miss me for a short absence, at least that is the lie I told myself.  I then went into my pity party and named all of the legitimate reasons why it was all too much - from the family chronic illnesses, challenging work, kids demands, pressure that comes with being the sole provider and the list really does go on...

Once I got my pity party out of the way and began to take a good look around as I walked the streets of San Francisco, I was reminded that there are other realities that are worse than mine.  It was not only the homeless persons I passed, it was also the mental capacities displayed by many people and those who had physical challenges.  The ironic thing was those (not all) I witnessed with physical challenges seemed to be taking it all in stride and enjoying the aspects of life they had influence over.

Pausing and taking it all in allowed me to reflect on the positive things in my life - a loving God, loving family, health, employment, shelter, food, working in one of the greatest cities in the world and this list truly goes on too.  I realize this change in thought did not change the circumstances I face daily.  It did however pull me out of the negative tail spin and provide me with the energy boost I needed to complete my work day and go tend to the demands that surround me!  I also reflected on one of the first blogs I wrote titled - "Dealing with Pain"where I ended with noting it was important to fight the negative flow of thoughts.

As I was feeling overwhelmed, I realized this is where my faith comes in.  Do I really believe that God would not give me anything that I could not handle (1Corinthians 10:13)?  Or are these verses simply things I say when someone else is going through a challenging time and I put on my Christian face - No!  I believe and claim these promises, I will make it!

Romans 12:2 says - "And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God." 

Blessings,
-d