Challenging time of year

This time of year is truly a challenging one for me.  As hard as I try to let go of memories/emotions, I somehow come across a little storage reservoir that I did not know existed, at least that is what I tell myself.  Maybe that reservoir is me not wanting to let go because I have learned how to mask my true emotions surrounding this time.  Or maybe it is better for me to hold on to this reservoir so I do not have to face my true feelings and deal with the memories/emotions.

Then I get angry because I realize that I am simply lying to myself, I AM dealing with the memories/emotions.  The question is am I dealing with this in a way that I can find true healing or am I dragging this thing out wayyyy more than it has to be?  I am inclined to think the answer is the later of the two.  So what shall I do, I think I will follow some of my own advice I have written in the following blog entries - Determination, Hope Vs. Hopelessness, and my New Year entry.

With cases like this, it seems easier to write and talk about then actually work on.  Then I remember that, "I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me."  Pray for me as I do the same for you, so that we all can enjoy the fruit of the Spirit.

Blessings,

-d